Facing your fears.

Most of my Cardiff readers will have heard of Ignite Cardiff.  For those who haven’t, picture this.  A sweaty bar on a Wednesday evening, free drinks, 200 + guests and 9 speakers presenting about whatever really gets their juices flowing (absolutely hate that expression – big apology).

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Just a small section of the crowd Sioned A Nia photography

It might not sound like a killer event, but somehow it just works.  Maybe it’s the friendly, albeit slightly drunk atmosphere.  Maybe it’s the banter from speakers and hosts alike.  Or maybe it’s the way you can leave feeling inspired, delirious from laughing so much as well as pretty educated.

Either way, I love it.  And this month I decided to take the plunge and apply to be a speaker.  What did I speak about, you might be wondering?  What is it I feel more passionately about than anything in the whole entire world?

Well, the answer’s simple.  Disney.

Disney is, without doubt, my biggest obsession.  It totally hangs over my life, affecting each and every day in some sparkly way.  And I have no regrets.  I have no shame.  I am a happy, self-diagnosed Disneyaholic.

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Questionable facial expression whilst waiting to take to the stageSioned A Nia photography

And yes, whilst I can speak about Disney for hours at a time with flair, confidence and poise (LOL JK), I was pretty terrified to speak about it in front of over 200 strangers.  And not just strangers; you get some pretty big Cardiff industry names coming along to these events.  Was I really ready to make a total fool of myself in front of all of them – would this really be a good first impression?

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Praying to the Disney gods for their support Sioned A Nia photography

After watching the video (you can check it out at the bottom of this post), the answer should be a loud, echoing NO!  Yet, somehow I managed to make some good connections in that room that night (after apologising for my post-talk wine induced state).  God knows how, and god knows why, but there you have it.

Doing the Ignite talk (despite it being on a pretty ridiculous *cough amazing cough* topic) has given me a buzz.  It’s made me think, well if you can do that what’s stopping you conquering your other fears?

I’m currently in a position where a lot is changing in my life.  It’s scary, it’s exciting, but it’s hopefully going to lead to something amazing.  I’m now ready to face the fears associated with it head on and push forward full throttle.  This change might not work (in fact, it might go disastrously wrong) but if I don’t try, if I don’t face my fear, I’ll never know.

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Post talk euphoria Sioned A Nia photography

What I’m trying to say is TAKE THE RISK.  Do something mad, whacky, out of the ordinary.  A five minute presentation on my Disney dependency might not sound like a big deal, but I really do feel as if I have achieved something I’ve never done before in my life.  And I love it.

Ignite Cardiff – Why Disney set me up with false expectations of adulthood.

Warning – swearing and a pink fluffy tiara are heavily involved.

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